So every millenium...

So pretty much, I never post on here.... I don't know why, I just don't. But I pretty much never post a blog on myspace either. I just don't blog much anymore.
I guess there's just stuff that I'm afraid certain people don't want me to publicly talk about. For example, that fact that I'm engaged and getting married to the most amazing and perfect guy EVER!!!
But I think it might embarrass him to talk about it. I don't really know why. Like, is it just a guy thing for them to not like to talk about it????
I'm pretty confused.
Anyway.... but I am engaged and getting married and I'm so stinking excited! I want to shout it from the tallest mountain and make the whole world hear about it. I mean, I'm going to marry the man of my dreams.... literally. I mean, who wouldn't dream about him! He's just PERFECT!!!
So we're thinking June, but I'm not so sure. I mean.... everyone does June. I'd really like to do a May wedding or even earlier, but we want to make sure we have at least enough money to get a good start.
I just want to get it over with because it is so hard to have to leave him every night or have to let him go home every night that he's at my house. And I think I'm starting to get a little annoying because I never want to let him leave and I put a pouty face on... but I don't think it's cute anymore... just annoying.
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I am pretty annoying to tell ya the truth. I think I annoy most people. Which makes the fact that I don't see my friends very often a good thing because then I don't annoy them and they get time away from me.
Aaaaa! I'm such a downer!!! BLAH!!!
I don't know what's wrong with me..... wait... I KNOW!!! And I'm going to be completely honest here! It's that time of the month and I'm never happy. I'm always in a bad mood... that's why God invented chocolate!
And anti-depressants! ; )
No... I'm not still on those. Sometimes I think I should be though. I'm like, depressed 85% of the time... not so good.
This is probably the most random blog because it has no actual flow to it. It's just kinda all over the place... but I like it that way.
So tomorrow is the 29th of November and I really want to put up Christmas decorations outside. I'm hoping that there will be enough sun shine tomorrow to be able to work outside and kinda get the yard cleaned up so we can make the house look all pretty for Christmas. YAY! I love the holiday... makes ya feel all warm and fuzzy inside.
But I'm not feeling very warm and fuzzy right now. More like I want to burst into tears and kick and scream and throw stuff for no real reason at all.
Actually, I think I have some pretty good reasoning. But I will not be disclosing that information. Private!!!
Oh but how I wish I could tell everyone why I'm not happy. I'm sure it would help much more than keeping it to myself.
But oh well... that's life.

Man.... I wish I had more happy things to talk about. Um........... my best friend Kara came home for Thanksgiving and I got to hang with her for a little while. We didn't get to hang out much, but she was only home for like 5 days basically. She'll be home for a break probably the 20th of December and then she's home until April!!!! YAYAYAYAYYYYY!!!!
That's when I'll be doing most of the wedding planning. She and my best friend Laura are going to be my brides maids. Laura is going to be my maid of honor because she's more like my sister than anyone of my friends because I've known her literally since day one of my life... and we even have the same last name. And then Kara is going to be like, my second maid of honor... since there's only going to be two girls.
I just can't wait to really get into the details. I think I'm the only one that's seriously psyched... I mean... I'm ready to burst with excitement and go crazy with planning, but I kinda feel like I can't. I don't know. I'm confused.... lots.
Well, this has been sufficiently lame, so I'm going to end now.
Later gators!!!