You give me feeeeva!!!

K, so I just got done watching the FINALE of Dancing With The Stars.
It was good, what I saw of it, but I missed the finale dances of the two competeing couples.
Oh well. It was still fun!
And.... MY PEOPLE WON!!!!!
Drew Lache and his partner won and got a sweet trophy!
Ahhhhh yeah!
It was great and I was spazing out! I LOVE THAT SHOW!!!
I just love anything having to do with Ballroom Dancing.

Anyhoo! Had a pretty awesome weekend. Now comes what I anticipate to be an extremely long week, just waiting for the weekend because basically all of my family (my mom's side) is coming here from Idaho Falls for my cousin's wedding reception!!!
SWEET!
I seriously am FREAKING OUT waiting for them to get here. I can't stand it! I want them to be here NOW!!! NOW NOW NOW!!!!!
I think I will go crazy! Seriously! But yeah, this coming weekend is going to be AWESOME and I'm sooooo stoked. I just can't believe they're actually going to be here. The only one that won't be here is my Uncle Derrick... which TOTALLY SUCKS because he is like, the coolest Uncle in the world... well, one of the coolest. I can't choose favorites because alllllll of my uncles are awesome. But Derrick is like, this crazy guy who goes perfectly with my Aunt Janice, who is the crazy lady and they both still act like kids (in a good way) and they make every second you're with them, pretty much the best time EVER. But he can't come because their dog, Gracie, is having PUPPIES!!! So, yeah... I'm gonna miss him tons! But Janice will be here and that is going to be FRIKIN' AWESOME!!!!


OOOOOOHHHHHHH!!! I just seriously can't stand the wait! It's going to be so hard to not lose my mind over it. I guess I will just have to keep really busy this week and stay distracted. Yep yep, that's the only solution.

Alrighty, I need to get going. I don't know why, but I do.
And, if any one talk to my future husband... Gerard Butler, please inform him that his future wife would really like to talk to him... and meet him, and he needs to return her phone calls!
Thanks!
; )
No... I don't really have his phone number, so don't ask!

Okay, so have a GREAT NIGHT!!! Sleep tight... and uh... all that good stuff.
LOVE YA TONS!

Peace out.

So very bad.

K, so my choir went on choir tour last week. We went to Portland, OR and we were there from Tuesday until Saturday. I knew that if I wasn't super careful, I would over-work my voice, so I was super careful and I drank a lot of water. But I think I didn't drink enough because I have seriously wrecked my voice. But I don't blame it on singing to much or too hard. I blame the buses that we were on.
We take charter buses when we go on trips for choir. They are awesome and SOOOOO much better than your average, yellow school bus. But they have one thing that is very bad, especially if you're on a choir trip. The air in these buses is recirculated air... which takes away pretty much any moisture that is in the air. Not so good for a bunch of singers on a trip that requires a lot of singing.
Well, I've known that this happens for a couple of years now, which is way I tried to stay really hydrated, but I really don't think I drank enough water.
So, now my voice is pretty terrible and I'm kind of scared that I did some serious damage to it.
I'm really freaking out about it, too. There are a lot of different things that you can have happen to your vocal chords, but one of the worst is to get what are called Nodes. From what my friend Britt told me, and she should know because she's had them, they are basically caluses on your vocal chords. But in some serious cases, people have had to have them surgically removed. A girl in my choir from last year had to have that done... it was pretty scary and she could have permanently lost her singing voice.
Well, I was at my Voice lesson tonight, and when I tried to sing, my teacher was very concerned about the way my voice sounds and she told me I should really get my throat checked out.
Not only does this scare the crap out of me, but it's also bringing me down emotionally because singing is my life, my passion, pretty much my everything. I don't think it's too terribly serious, but ya just never know until you have a professional check it out.
I'm just praying that it will heal up fast and I won't have to deal with it for long because if I have to not sing for much longer, I'll probably lose it, big time. I can't stand not singing.... it's so much a part of me. It's like having a handicap for me.
Not good.
Not happy.
I want to cry.
So, pray for me and wish me luck. I need my voice back by next Monday. Solo Festival, kind of a big deal for me. I want to get a Superior.
Anyhoo.
Just needed to blog about this and get it out. Maybe I will have an Angel of music of my own to watch over me and help me through this and get it over with quickly.
Have a good night.

Love always,
The Angel of Music

Mother F......... udge?

This just in... I hate migraine headaches!
They suck muy mucho!
Bleh!
I don't feel good because of a migraine headache.
I want caffine... lots of it.
I LOVE THE NEW LOOK OF MY BLOG!
Wooooo!
Yeah!
Cool!
Um.......... I have not enough brain power to blog anymore.
Peace out.

P.S. I'm going to marry the Phantom of the Opera... who is Gerard Butler... who is muy caliente!
The end.

HELLSYEAH!

So, cheers to Brian for making my blog kick some serious ASS!
I LOVE IT!!!!!
Here, here! Three cheers for Brian!
I love ya man!
Um..... will blog soon.
Busy now.
Must go.
Peace out.

Yes yes y'all, I'm actually blogging on here today!

K, so I pretty much NEVER blog on here anymore, mostly because I use my myspace blog almost constantly. I also use that one because I know that there are people that actually read that one.
But today, I decided to use this blog, mostly because I know hardly ANYONE reads this one, and the people that do won't freak out because of what I post. And, it's kind of personal, so I don't want the whole
world reading about it.

So, I'm posting the lyrics to a Natasha Bedingfield song called Wild Horses.
I'm posting it on here, and not on myspace, because.... well, I guess I'll explain after you read the lyrics.

Wild Horses - Natasha Bedingfield

Ooooh
I feel these four walls closing in
Face up against the glass
I'm looking out, hmmm
Is this my life I'm wondering
It happened so fast
How do I turn this thing around
Is this the bed I chose to make
There's greener pastures I'm thinking about
Hmm, wide open spaces far away
All I want is the wind in my hair
To face the fear but not feel scared

Ooh, wild horses I wanna be like you
Throwing caution to the wind,
I'll run free too
Wish I could recklessly love like I'm longing to
I wanna run with the wild horses
Run with the wild horses, ohwhoahh
Yeah, oh oh, ye-yeah

I see the girl I wanna be
Riding bare-back, care-free
Along the shore
If only that someone was me
Jumping head-first, head-long
Without a thought
To act and DAMN the consequences
How I wish it could be that easy
But fear surrounds me like a fence
I wanna break free

All I want is the wind in my hair
To face the fear, but not feel scared

Oooh, wild horses I wanna be like you
Throwing caution to the wind,
I'll run free too
Wish I could recklessly love like I'm longing to
I wanna run with the wild horses
Run with the wild horses, oh

I wanna run too
Oooh oh oh oh

Recklessly abandoning myself before you
I wanna open up my heart
Telling how I feel, ooh ooh

Oooh, wild horses I wanna be like you
Throwing caution to the wind,
I'll run free too
Wish I could recklessly love like I'm longing to
I wanna run with the wild horses
Run with the wild horses
Run with the wild horses
Ooh ooooh ooh ooh ye-yeah yeah oohh
I wanna run with the wild horses,
ooooh

So yeah, I guess I'm posting it on here and not on myspace because, in reference to myself, that song basically says that I've got some fears that I just can't face, but I if only I could face them, and not care about the consequences. It's saying that I wish I could be free, not only on the outside, but on the inside as well. I want to be able to feel like..... like the wild horses, I guess. I want to be this unstoppable spirit, that nothing can alter, or bring down, or tame. I want to love openly and not be so afraid of being used, rejected, lied to, whatever.... I want to trust everyone,
but I have to trust myself first and trust that my heart won't stop beating at the first sign of heartbreak that it feels.

And contrary to the popular belief, just because a girl talks about being afraid to love and being afraid to have her heart broken, it doesn't always mean that it's directed towards guys and dating and stupid crap like that.
So, just so ya know, that's not what this blog is about. : )

I guess I don't want a whole bunch of people reading this because I don't want them to know that I am not a brave and care-free as I seem to be on the outside. I'm not as confident and courageous as I pretend to be.
I still have a lot that I have to work through before I am that fearless, care-free, confident person, inside and out.

That's all. Peace out.