Having to finally let go... it's not going to be easy!

Hey everyone. So, today has been a very emotional and challenging day to get through for me and many of my friends. Two of my good friends from school, Russel and Dustin Youngberg (I hope that's how you spell it), just finished their last day of school with us here in Eagle. They are moving to Alaska because their family has businesses up there and stuff. So, it has been really hard to say good-bye to them and face fact that they won't be there tomorrow when I go to school.

I had two classes with both Dustin and Stover (Russel). I had Chemistry with Dustin second period, then third period I had seminary with Stover, and fourth period I had Jazz Choir with both of them. Man was it tough to get through choir today. So many tears! I felt like an idiot because I always cry, but Tanna told me that it was okay to cry and to just let it out. She is sooo great! Anyhoo! So, I think I hugged Dustin about 8 times and Stover about 4 or 5 times. I gave Stover my e-mail, along with a short note just telling him how much his friendship has meant to me, and I got his e-mail, so hopefully he will check his e-mail like it's a religion because I am going to send him an e-mail at least twice a week.

I just can't believe that they're not going to be there. The reality of them leaving actually hit me on Thursday of last week. I was driving in the car, and a song came on about being far apart from friends and loved ones, and it just hit me like a punch to the face. I couldn't believe how horrible my heart felt. Then last night I literally fell asleep crying over it. But today was the hardest part of getting through it. It's going to take awhile for the weirdness of them being gone to go away, but I will never be able to stop missing them. I just have to have patience for the hurt to leave and ask the Lord for strength to get me through the times when I really miss seeing them.

Well, I guess that's pretty much all I wanted to say. I just want them to know how cool they are and that their friendship means everything to me. And if anyone needs to talk about missing someone they love, I'm always around to listen. Just let me know! God bless!