Top'o the day t'ya!
Fist off, I am going to say I'm sorry that this will be a long post. SO, here we go... Yep, it's official that it is impossible to please the entire world, no matter how hard you try! No matter how pleasing you are, or happy, or funny, or kind, or sympathetic, or charitable, or humble, or loving... none of it seems to matter! I can't stand it anymore! GEH!!!!!!!! I think it's because I actually WANT to be a great person and the darker forces are at work against me. Well, cheers to them, or it, what ever it may be, I say CHEERS because even though I want to give up, I'M NOT GONNA! SO THERE! So, if anyone has a problem with people that like to be loved, you can just BITE ME! Ha!
And in other news, I like to rant and rave about pointless crap that nobody cares about! Yay! Okay, seriously, I do have something to talk about, but if you don't want to read about depressing stuff, you shouldn't read on. But if you care enough to read on, please do!
Anyhoo! So, I will try to make this short, but today I discovered that I was dead-wrong about a feeling I was having, and I'm really glad that I realized it today, instead of letting the feeling get stronger and then getting hurt later on. If you're wondering, yes, it has to do with a guy. And this is about the first time that I have mentioned it, except when I talk to my cousin about it. She's the only one I've talked to about liking this guy, and now, tonight, I get to cry on her shoulder and tell her how wrong I was. So, okay, in a nut-shell... I thought he liked me, and I thought things were going really well, but he said something today that changed everything and now I want someone to rip my heart out of my chest so I don't have to feel it breaking anymore. I am DONE with all this "feelings" stuff because I am SICK of always being depressed and hurt over STUPID GUYS! (Please, if you are a guy, do not take any offense, I am just unhappy, and this does not mean I think all guys are the same.) So, that's pretty much it.
OH! I have also decided that I am going into a coma on Valentines Day. I bet you can guess why I feel like that. But it's kinda my fault because I watch too many chick flicks, and those make me day dream about all this hopeless romantic stuff. But my dream Valentines day would be, to be at school and recieve an anonymous Valentine that is home-made that just says "Be My Valentine." Then later that day, while at home, get a knock on the door or hear the door bell ring and open the door to find, not a person, but a boquet of a dozen red and white roses with a note that says something like, "If you're answer to the first question was yes, and you will be my Valentine, then meet me at (insert a place to meet, preferably somewhere public. I see at the Gazeebo at Heritage Park in Eagle at about sunset) at (insert time, ya know, sunset) and be ready for a romantic night out on the town. Signed anonymous. So, I'd get all beautified and then have someone at least accompany me until I know how the person is, so it's safe. And he'd be dressed up ( doens't mean the guy would have to be wear a tux or anything.) Then we'd go have a nice dinner ( I think homemade Candle-lit dinners are the best! With slow music playing). Then when we're done eating, he stands up, puts his hand out, and asks me if I want to dance, then we dance to a song that he specially picked just for that dance. And then he gets me home before or by midnight (because I respect my parents and their generous curfew), with a possible goodnight kiss on the porch, depending on how well we know each other and what not. So, yeah, I know, it's REALLY lame that I have that all planned out, but that's how my perfect Valentine's Day will happen, someday, with a few unexpected things here and there. So, I will be home Valentines Day watching old, mushy, sad, depressing, love movies, eating chocolate, curled up with tons of blankets, just dreaming about when that day comes. *Sigh*...hmmmm... well. That's it. I just had to let that known, so everyone can know how lame I am. Have a GREAT day and I hope to hear from you! Much love. So sorry it's such a Long Post!
And in other news, I like to rant and rave about pointless crap that nobody cares about! Yay! Okay, seriously, I do have something to talk about, but if you don't want to read about depressing stuff, you shouldn't read on. But if you care enough to read on, please do!
Anyhoo! So, I will try to make this short, but today I discovered that I was dead-wrong about a feeling I was having, and I'm really glad that I realized it today, instead of letting the feeling get stronger and then getting hurt later on. If you're wondering, yes, it has to do with a guy. And this is about the first time that I have mentioned it, except when I talk to my cousin about it. She's the only one I've talked to about liking this guy, and now, tonight, I get to cry on her shoulder and tell her how wrong I was. So, okay, in a nut-shell... I thought he liked me, and I thought things were going really well, but he said something today that changed everything and now I want someone to rip my heart out of my chest so I don't have to feel it breaking anymore. I am DONE with all this "feelings" stuff because I am SICK of always being depressed and hurt over STUPID GUYS! (Please, if you are a guy, do not take any offense, I am just unhappy, and this does not mean I think all guys are the same.) So, that's pretty much it.
OH! I have also decided that I am going into a coma on Valentines Day. I bet you can guess why I feel like that. But it's kinda my fault because I watch too many chick flicks, and those make me day dream about all this hopeless romantic stuff. But my dream Valentines day would be, to be at school and recieve an anonymous Valentine that is home-made that just says "Be My Valentine." Then later that day, while at home, get a knock on the door or hear the door bell ring and open the door to find, not a person, but a boquet of a dozen red and white roses with a note that says something like, "If you're answer to the first question was yes, and you will be my Valentine, then meet me at (insert a place to meet, preferably somewhere public. I see at the Gazeebo at Heritage Park in Eagle at about sunset) at (insert time, ya know, sunset) and be ready for a romantic night out on the town. Signed anonymous. So, I'd get all beautified and then have someone at least accompany me until I know how the person is, so it's safe. And he'd be dressed up ( doens't mean the guy would have to be wear a tux or anything.) Then we'd go have a nice dinner ( I think homemade Candle-lit dinners are the best! With slow music playing). Then when we're done eating, he stands up, puts his hand out, and asks me if I want to dance, then we dance to a song that he specially picked just for that dance. And then he gets me home before or by midnight (because I respect my parents and their generous curfew), with a possible goodnight kiss on the porch, depending on how well we know each other and what not. So, yeah, I know, it's REALLY lame that I have that all planned out, but that's how my perfect Valentine's Day will happen, someday, with a few unexpected things here and there. So, I will be home Valentines Day watching old, mushy, sad, depressing, love movies, eating chocolate, curled up with tons of blankets, just dreaming about when that day comes. *Sigh*...hmmmm... well. That's it. I just had to let that known, so everyone can know how lame I am. Have a GREAT day and I hope to hear from you! Much love. So sorry it's such a Long Post!
The Angel of Music mingled with commoners at 3:40 PM
3 Comments:
At 12:42 PM,
Anonymous said…
Hey, Grem
You are certainly your mothers child, what with the ranting and carrying on. :) You are a sweetheart and will make some lucky man very happy one day. My only word of advice, and I know you probably don't wanna hear it from me, is to take your time. Be gentle on yourself and know that you will have your heart broken many more times before you find the perfect one. Trust me, I'm living proof! But, above all else, "work like you don't need the money, dance like no one is watching and love like you have never been hurt." --- Satchel Paige
I found this page online and think it is something we all need reminded of twice in a while. It was written by a gal named Tania Tyler.
What a great philosophy to travel through life’s journey with! It was interesting to receive this quote in an email this week as I have told many people “you just need to dance as though no one is watching.” This statement can be taken literally – go out dancing and just let your spirit soar, enjoy yourself, have fun – or, figuratively – dance through life and just let your spirit soar, enjoy yourself, have fun … does it really matter what other’s think? I’m not talking about throwing away all responsibilities (we do live in a real world), but rather about taking time to be or explore who we are. Work on finding a balance. Be true to yourself, don’t live your life to please others. Live to please yourself and others will be pleased. Emotions are infectious; why not spread happiness, joy and love?
Take the time to watch a seagull in flight. Some days, depending on the weather, they appear to just float, soar and really enjoy themselves. Watch again on a windy day, they have to work a little harder to get where they’re going. Notice how when the weather gets stormy, they land and just hang out for a while. Here’s a quote from “ Jonathan Livingston Seagull” by Richard Bach: “Seagulls, as you know, never falter, never stall. To stall in the air is for them disgrace and it is dishonor. But Jonathan Livingston Seagull, unashamed, stretching his wings again in the trembling hard curve – slowing, slowing, and stalling once more – was no ordinary bird.” Next time you get to a stormy day, read this book again as an adult. Everyday brings something new; learn to notice something new each day. Life will always be filled with challenges, make the best of them. Enjoy life, be happy. Go with the flow.
As we learn to “work like you don’t need money”, our jobs become less of a burden or struggle. Isn’t life more pleasurable when you are doing something you enjoy rather than something you “have to”? Look upon work as something rewarding. Money isn’t everything. Take pride in your tasks, be the best you can at what you do. Smile more. Try this for a couple of days; watch your job transform into something more enjoyable. Chances are, more money will also come your way. Just imagine the difference in tips for a waiter/waitress who smiles and makes their job more enjoyable compared to the person that really doesn’t want to be there. Or the possible job promotions when you put your best foot forward.
Now, the tough part – “love like you’ve never been hurt”. Everyone is unique, every relationship is unique. Give that person every opportunity; don’t compare them or limit the relationship because of fears from the past. Learn from the past. Release yourself from the past. Live the present moment. Don’t look back and don’t look forward. What you have is right now. It’s guaranteed that if you expect to be hurt, you’ll find it. Openness, understanding and honesty are important aspects to any relationship; they reduce expectations and allow us to “see it as it is”. People change, they grow. Love involves allowing the other to grow, to be who they are – to accept the possibility that you don’t walk the same path anymore. Love may not last forever but if you enjoy every minute you have of it and can look back without regrets … we are all here to live life to it’s fullest, to learn from it’s lessons. Everyone has something to share, be it good or bad. It is up to us to determine how fully we experience living.
So, now let’s tie this philosophy to a health column. By living our lives more in tune with our natural spirit, we add more balance into our lives, our bodies are more at ease – not dis-ease. Stress levels reduce. With a reduction of stress, blood pressures reduce, sleep routines become more restful, digestion problems subside, tension headaches disappear; anxiety, nervousness, and depression reduce … the possibilities are endless. Take the time to enjoy life.
Time waits for no one …
At 4:24 PM,
Kinipeli said…
I don't think I can beat the length of liljsm's post. But anyhow, girl to girl we all dream of that Valentine's Day, the only thing you left out is when he kisses you, your foot goes up uncontrolably.
Don't feel to down I am still waiting for My Valentine's Day Date AND I AM MARRIED!!! :)
At 3:19 PM,
Anonymous said…
Hey Hun!!! I feel your pain and i hope things get better for ya. Well I know we haven't hung out with each other for a really long time and we should. Cause I miss hearing your laugh. Well I think your dream of Valentines Day is really good and if you have no date I'll come and hang out with you. Well I love ya lots!!!! Call me at 939-8220
Love ya
Allison
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