I feel like I won't cry tonight.

So, yesterday was Kenny's funeral, and it was a very hard thing to get through. It was very well done, and we all felt a sweet spirit during the services, but yesterday just went on forever and it was still so difficult to smile.
But today has been a good day. My mom and I went and saw the movie The Perfect Man. It was a nice movie, best Hilary Duff movie yet. I loved it. I was still a little emotional, crying one second (during the movie) for no reason, then laughing like crazy. But after the movie, it was dumping rain outside, and I had to run to the car... with flip-flop's on, so I couldn't really run. Once I got in the car, I was laughing like crazy, and I couldn't feel my heart breaking anymore. It was gone, and I was happy. Then we went home really quick, and I called one of my best friends, Kat. We invited her to go to the mall, so that we could all get out of our houses and do something fun (Kat was EXTREMELY close to Kenny... almost his girlfriend). So, my mom and I picked her and her mom up, and we all went and had a girl's day at the mall. We were all laughing and smiling, and I just felt so at peace and felt like it was okay to let go and smile.
So, I'm pretty sure that tonight, for the first time since Wednesday (when he died), I won't be crying myself to sleep. I think that I will be able to go to sleep smiling and feeling that we are all going to make it through this. I'm thankful for Kenny's friendship, and for the memories we all made with him. And I'm glad that he is happy, and helping us be happy too.
Thanks to everyone for being amazing people. I'm only friends with people who have big hearts and lots of love for everyone, so if you're reading this, and you know me... then you know you're my friend and I love you. And if you don't know me, I still love you, just for being a creation of God. Peace out.