Right here waiting... just waiting.
You look right through me everyday, you never notice my smiles and my frowns when you don't see me smile. You use me for things that are vital to you to stay socially on top, but you leave me alone at the bottom, just sitting and watching. You push me down with every chance that is presented to you, yet you expect so much from me. You never realize my feelings, you walk all over me and degrade me, you never count me in your life, you never really see me... you never really see. Were we ever friends, or is it all just lies?
When will you see that I have cared about you every second, that I have been there for you at your every whim? That I have loved you and helped you and cherished you? Did any of it even register inside of you, or is your heart of stone and ice? Can't you see what you mean to me? Can't you tell I'm begging you to see what I feel? Can't you feel the guilt inside yourself, eating away at you because you have treated me so very lowly? Can't you tell I'm screaming for you to take notice and show some compassion? When will your feelings tell you that someone that loves you has been left in the cold and lonely dark because of you? Will you ever?
Running does no good, hiding can't take the hurt away, fighting back is useless... nothing will ever reach you. But wait... if I disappear... if I'm never in your life, if one day you need me and I'm not there, will you notice then???? It is just as easy for me to not care anymore. I'm wasting my life on this, I'm just wasting away worrying about you. Life if too short for this, and I am not afraid to let you go. You've so obviously forgotten me, why not complete it and really go? Why not just never show my face in your presence ever again? It's an easy thing and can be done. I am not afraid!
But this is a fact, that nothing will change your cold and empty heart... nothing will change your ways and thoughts and feelings... you don't even have feelings. How could you? And how could you be this way? How could any one person be this way? The world is losing its blessed touch, and instead has a horrid cursing blow. We who are born here are cursed... we are all a cursed people... and the only cure is lost. Love is lost. Love is. Love. There is nothing else. Just you and me.
Where is mercy for the hurting heart? There is none found in this day.
When will you see that I have cared about you every second, that I have been there for you at your every whim? That I have loved you and helped you and cherished you? Did any of it even register inside of you, or is your heart of stone and ice? Can't you see what you mean to me? Can't you tell I'm begging you to see what I feel? Can't you feel the guilt inside yourself, eating away at you because you have treated me so very lowly? Can't you tell I'm screaming for you to take notice and show some compassion? When will your feelings tell you that someone that loves you has been left in the cold and lonely dark because of you? Will you ever?
Running does no good, hiding can't take the hurt away, fighting back is useless... nothing will ever reach you. But wait... if I disappear... if I'm never in your life, if one day you need me and I'm not there, will you notice then???? It is just as easy for me to not care anymore. I'm wasting my life on this, I'm just wasting away worrying about you. Life if too short for this, and I am not afraid to let you go. You've so obviously forgotten me, why not complete it and really go? Why not just never show my face in your presence ever again? It's an easy thing and can be done. I am not afraid!
But this is a fact, that nothing will change your cold and empty heart... nothing will change your ways and thoughts and feelings... you don't even have feelings. How could you? And how could you be this way? How could any one person be this way? The world is losing its blessed touch, and instead has a horrid cursing blow. We who are born here are cursed... we are all a cursed people... and the only cure is lost. Love is lost. Love is. Love. There is nothing else. Just you and me.
Where is mercy for the hurting heart? There is none found in this day.
The Angel of Music mingled with commoners at 4:10 PM
1 Comments:
At 2:38 AM,
Kinipeli said…
Hey Em, go into your dashboard, where you would post a blog, click on change settings, click on comments, you see "who can comment", change it to registered users. Hopefully that will help. If it doesn't you may have to change your address and just give it to people you trust, MEEE!!
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