So very bad.

K, so my choir went on choir tour last week. We went to Portland, OR and we were there from Tuesday until Saturday. I knew that if I wasn't super careful, I would over-work my voice, so I was super careful and I drank a lot of water. But I think I didn't drink enough because I have seriously wrecked my voice. But I don't blame it on singing to much or too hard. I blame the buses that we were on.
We take charter buses when we go on trips for choir. They are awesome and SOOOOO much better than your average, yellow school bus. But they have one thing that is very bad, especially if you're on a choir trip. The air in these buses is recirculated air... which takes away pretty much any moisture that is in the air. Not so good for a bunch of singers on a trip that requires a lot of singing.
Well, I've known that this happens for a couple of years now, which is way I tried to stay really hydrated, but I really don't think I drank enough water.
So, now my voice is pretty terrible and I'm kind of scared that I did some serious damage to it.
I'm really freaking out about it, too. There are a lot of different things that you can have happen to your vocal chords, but one of the worst is to get what are called Nodes. From what my friend Britt told me, and she should know because she's had them, they are basically caluses on your vocal chords. But in some serious cases, people have had to have them surgically removed. A girl in my choir from last year had to have that done... it was pretty scary and she could have permanently lost her singing voice.
Well, I was at my Voice lesson tonight, and when I tried to sing, my teacher was very concerned about the way my voice sounds and she told me I should really get my throat checked out.
Not only does this scare the crap out of me, but it's also bringing me down emotionally because singing is my life, my passion, pretty much my everything. I don't think it's too terribly serious, but ya just never know until you have a professional check it out.
I'm just praying that it will heal up fast and I won't have to deal with it for long because if I have to not sing for much longer, I'll probably lose it, big time. I can't stand not singing.... it's so much a part of me. It's like having a handicap for me.
Not good.
Not happy.
I want to cry.
So, pray for me and wish me luck. I need my voice back by next Monday. Solo Festival, kind of a big deal for me. I want to get a Superior.
Anyhoo.
Just needed to blog about this and get it out. Maybe I will have an Angel of music of my own to watch over me and help me through this and get it over with quickly.
Have a good night.

Love always,
The Angel of Music